The wake was last night and the funeral was this morning. I wasn't able to make it home for either. One, I don't have my own car up here and two, everyone was staying the night for the funeral and I would have had to make it back last night.
My mom and sister went to the wake last night to represent me. She said it was really sad and really hard to be there. But she said the boys were all strong, and big Pete gave her a big hug and said "some of us need bigger hugs." I am so glad that he is staying strong. He needs to be there for those boys.
Ashley said that Diane, Chelsea's (one of my best friends and my exs brother's girlfriend of three years) mom, sang a Brad Paisley song at the funeral this morning. Mary loved Brad Paisley. I remember last summer we all went to the Brad Paisley concert at Bethel Woods and she was in love. =) I miss her already.
She was such a happy spirit. Whenever I would go to Joe's house, I would sit in the living room and talk to her for hours. Even when she started getting sick she would just laugh about it so she wouldn't think about the pain.
Mary, I miss you. Stay strong up there and watch over us. I love you.
On a happier note, Ashley and Danii, two of my best friends from home are coming up this weekend. They are going to be here before I get out of class so they are visiting Ashley's boyfriend and Daniis friend that both go here. I can't wait till they get here. It is going to be so much fun.
Also when I go home for fall break I found out that I am going to be babysitting two of my favorite boys ever. Their mom I have known for years, and she doesn't trust her kids in the hands of anyone besides my sister, me, and her cousin. She is going on the girls weekend with my mom. Sooo I am excited about that.
I also told my mom tonight I can't wait until me and her get into one of our laughing fitssss. I love them, she can go on for 10 mins straight. I miss her and Nicole so much.
Peace. <3
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
RIP Mary
A few days ago my mom called me to let me know that we probably only had a few more weeks left with Mary.
** Mary is my ex boyfriend's mother that I have known my entire life. When me and Joe were dating she was diagnosed with breast cancer. But she was still so strong. After her chemotherapy and radiation she was seeming to get a little better. But soon after he went away to school that fall she started to get sick again. The cancer had spread to her liver and then close to graduation this year she developed a cancerous brain tumor that they had to remove. This resulted in one half of her face being completely numb and her having no control over it or her eye. She was weakening slowly and didn't know how much more she could take. Then in the past few weeks she developed tumors in her spine causing her to be not able to walk. She was hospitalized soon after and was staying there full time. **
When my mom called me I thought I would be able to see Mary in 2 weeks to say goodbye while I was home. This morning I got a call from my mom saying Mary passed away last night. She was such an amazing person. Her son Pete is a junior at Oneonta and dating one of my best friends Chelsea and she also goes to Oneonta. They have been together for about three years and they were Mary's rocks. Her other son Joe, my ex, is a sophomore at New Paltz. He is the kind of person that never wants to talk about anything personal or let anyone in. But while we were dating he had someone to turn to and talk to if he chose to. And she has one more son who is a 6th grader at the school back home. This poor kid has had to go through so much with his mom being sick and his dad losing his job. And her husband Pete Sr. has to stay so strong for those boys becaus eI know if he breaks down it will be really tough.
I just wish I could have said goodbye to her. Being that my mom also had breast cancer, she had talked to Mary on several occasions telling her that she had to stay strong and fight through this. But as everything kept getting worse Mary didn't know how much more she could take.
Mary,
I love you. I already miss you. You were so strong for so long, and know that you are now in heaven and no longer suffering. Please continue to watch over everyone Miss Mary. Your spirit will live on forever and I know that your strength will be passed on to your boys. They will make you proud, don't worry.
I love you, I miss you.
Rest in Peace Miss Mary.
-Melissa.
Peace<3
** Mary is my ex boyfriend's mother that I have known my entire life. When me and Joe were dating she was diagnosed with breast cancer. But she was still so strong. After her chemotherapy and radiation she was seeming to get a little better. But soon after he went away to school that fall she started to get sick again. The cancer had spread to her liver and then close to graduation this year she developed a cancerous brain tumor that they had to remove. This resulted in one half of her face being completely numb and her having no control over it or her eye. She was weakening slowly and didn't know how much more she could take. Then in the past few weeks she developed tumors in her spine causing her to be not able to walk. She was hospitalized soon after and was staying there full time. **
When my mom called me I thought I would be able to see Mary in 2 weeks to say goodbye while I was home. This morning I got a call from my mom saying Mary passed away last night. She was such an amazing person. Her son Pete is a junior at Oneonta and dating one of my best friends Chelsea and she also goes to Oneonta. They have been together for about three years and they were Mary's rocks. Her other son Joe, my ex, is a sophomore at New Paltz. He is the kind of person that never wants to talk about anything personal or let anyone in. But while we were dating he had someone to turn to and talk to if he chose to. And she has one more son who is a 6th grader at the school back home. This poor kid has had to go through so much with his mom being sick and his dad losing his job. And her husband Pete Sr. has to stay so strong for those boys becaus eI know if he breaks down it will be really tough.
I just wish I could have said goodbye to her. Being that my mom also had breast cancer, she had talked to Mary on several occasions telling her that she had to stay strong and fight through this. But as everything kept getting worse Mary didn't know how much more she could take.
Mary,
I love you. I already miss you. You were so strong for so long, and know that you are now in heaven and no longer suffering. Please continue to watch over everyone Miss Mary. Your spirit will live on forever and I know that your strength will be passed on to your boys. They will make you proud, don't worry.
I love you, I miss you.
Rest in Peace Miss Mary.
-Melissa.
Peace<3
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Sick and/of Psych
So for my psych class we have to take online quizes every week fo every couple of weeks before the test. At first this was not a problem for me. That was until my laptop decided to not allow me to access these quizes. So then I bring my computer to my professor so he can see if he can figure out what is wrong, and it won't connect to the Cortland wireless network in his office. Why does my life have to be so complicated. Then I go to the library thinking I can just get it out of the way and have it done and finish up the rest of my studying. I get to the first computer, sit down, log in, all that jazz, and no, cannot do the test on this computer either. I go downstairs and tell the girl at the desk about my problem and she thinks that these tests only work on the computers in the PC Lab. She points me in that direction with all hope that I get to take my quiz. I log in and get further then I did on my own computer and the computer upstairs, but still no I can't take the quiz on this computer either. Now I am just thinking that I was really not meant to take this quiz this week. So I go to the girl at the desk again, and this other girl overhears our conversation. She mentions how she took psych two semesters ago and was always able to access it in the Pc Lab, but then come to find out there is another lab by the coffee shop. I finally found luck in my psych quiz dilema. As I am sitting there taking the first quiz, which by the way I got at 85 on the first try and you need to get at least an 80 to take the test, the girl sitting next to me mentions how she remembers taking these. We both agree how the professor does not teach or lecture but goes by the power point book that we all have. After she leaves and I start making an attempt at the Chapter 3 quiz, a guy sits down where she was sitting and says "Ohh Chapter 3 already, over achiever?" Haha, I thought he was funny. He too shared my dislike with the fact that this professor does not lecture in which it is pointless for us to be there. He was a junior transfer student and laughs about how he needs freshman help in all of his classes because of the leap from high school to the classes he is taking now. (if that makes any sense) After I was finished I realized that he was actually in my class, sits in front of me so I thought that was pretty cool. I now know more than 5 people in my lecture hall of like 125.
But I do have the second cold of the semester. I have a feeling that my floor is a little too close because we all seem to get sick around the same time. If one girl has a cold, a few days later low and behold a bunch of girls have a cold. My mom is sending me down more viatmins because she thinks they will help. My body reacts very strangely to this weather, even though I am from upstate. I am lower than here, but still. Going from hot, to cold, to hot, to rainy, to hot, to cold is throwing me all off. I just can't wait till there is three feet of snow on the ground, I can wear sweatshirts and sweatpants and Uggs everyday and go snowboarding over at Greak Peak. That would truely make me happy.
I think that my friend Heather is coming to visit again this weekend. She loves it here, especially because at her school its really boring on the weekends. She is probably bringing her friend Kristen who she brought the last time and this kid Mike that I have yet to meet. I say we have yet to meet because I have spoken to him on the phone several times and on the interent insane amounts. We fight and I tell him how I am going to kick him in the head when I see him. Mike is 6'5" probably 220ish I'm guessing, so this is just a big joke to him. Haha he doesn't think I'm serious. But I am. My older brother is a body builder and we used to wrestle all the time. I may not be a body builder but I can put up a good fight.
Speaking of my brother, I haven't seen him or his wife in so long. I really miss them. They both actually went here and graduated in 2005. They are both teachers, living in the next town over from me and have a beautiful house with lots of land and a dog and some cats. Haha, they are starting their family and trying to have their first baby. I have a few step neices and nephews but I can't wait to have an actual blood neice or nephew. My brother and his wife started dating when she was in 8th grade and he was a freshman in highschool. They are true high school sweethearts. He waited an extra year at our community college for her so they could come to Cortland together and graduate together. But I haven't seen them since about a week before I came up here. They are both really busy with school and Derek coaches the football team and does a weightlifting program for the kids in school, so he is super busy.
I guess thats it for now,
oh I decided to change my subject once again for our articles, to the urban legend "it takes more muscles to frown then it does to smile". So I better go research so I am ready for tomorrow.
Peace. <3
But I do have the second cold of the semester. I have a feeling that my floor is a little too close because we all seem to get sick around the same time. If one girl has a cold, a few days later low and behold a bunch of girls have a cold. My mom is sending me down more viatmins because she thinks they will help. My body reacts very strangely to this weather, even though I am from upstate. I am lower than here, but still. Going from hot, to cold, to hot, to rainy, to hot, to cold is throwing me all off. I just can't wait till there is three feet of snow on the ground, I can wear sweatshirts and sweatpants and Uggs everyday and go snowboarding over at Greak Peak. That would truely make me happy.
I think that my friend Heather is coming to visit again this weekend. She loves it here, especially because at her school its really boring on the weekends. She is probably bringing her friend Kristen who she brought the last time and this kid Mike that I have yet to meet. I say we have yet to meet because I have spoken to him on the phone several times and on the interent insane amounts. We fight and I tell him how I am going to kick him in the head when I see him. Mike is 6'5" probably 220ish I'm guessing, so this is just a big joke to him. Haha he doesn't think I'm serious. But I am. My older brother is a body builder and we used to wrestle all the time. I may not be a body builder but I can put up a good fight.
Speaking of my brother, I haven't seen him or his wife in so long. I really miss them. They both actually went here and graduated in 2005. They are both teachers, living in the next town over from me and have a beautiful house with lots of land and a dog and some cats. Haha, they are starting their family and trying to have their first baby. I have a few step neices and nephews but I can't wait to have an actual blood neice or nephew. My brother and his wife started dating when she was in 8th grade and he was a freshman in highschool. They are true high school sweethearts. He waited an extra year at our community college for her so they could come to Cortland together and graduate together. But I haven't seen them since about a week before I came up here. They are both really busy with school and Derek coaches the football team and does a weightlifting program for the kids in school, so he is super busy.
I guess thats it for now,
oh I decided to change my subject once again for our articles, to the urban legend "it takes more muscles to frown then it does to smile". So I better go research so I am ready for tomorrow.
Peace. <3
Friday, September 12, 2008
home
I just got home and it feels really good to be here. I missed my dog so much, he was sooooo happy to see me haha. And I had dinner at CrackerBarrell which was so much better then campus food. I can't wait till my mom makes me dinner tomorrow night. I feels weird not sitting in my room hearing all the girls in the hallway being so loud and running around. Haha, sounds lame but I miss my DeGroat girls already.
My friend Danii is on her way here and I can't wait to see her. I'm not sure what is going on yet but I hope I get to see everyone while I am home.
I missed another health class today, haha. It was raining and I felt like absolute crap so I just slept. She doesn't take attendance and all we have been doing is taking notes and doing deep breathing exercises so its fine :)
I was orginally suppose to take a bus to Binghamton and meet my mom there. But my RA said he would bring me to Bing instead of taking the bus so I just assumed he would. Haha we still tried getting the bus, they ended up moving the bus station, and we missed the bus. What a freaking adventure.
Thats all for now,
Peace<3
My friend Danii is on her way here and I can't wait to see her. I'm not sure what is going on yet but I hope I get to see everyone while I am home.
I missed another health class today, haha. It was raining and I felt like absolute crap so I just slept. She doesn't take attendance and all we have been doing is taking notes and doing deep breathing exercises so its fine :)
I was orginally suppose to take a bus to Binghamton and meet my mom there. But my RA said he would bring me to Bing instead of taking the bus so I just assumed he would. Haha we still tried getting the bus, they ended up moving the bus station, and we missed the bus. What a freaking adventure.
Thats all for now,
Peace<3
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Past weekend and home
On Saturday my friend decided at 830pm that she was going to drive up here to see me, even though all day she had thought about it. She goes to college in Pennsylvania, Misercordia, so its easily a two hour drive. Her and her friend got here around 11pm and because of a gross, boring, rainy night... they ended up leaving at 2am. But she is going to come back up with more friends in two weeks when its planned to be a little better weekend for her to be here.
I am taking a bus to Binghamton on Friday after my last class and meeting my mom. This weekend is the annual Trevor Simpson Memorial Golf Tournament that I volunteer at every year. This weekend all of my friends that go away come home and everyone that is already home is so excited. The tournament is on Saturday and it is pretty much an all day thing. I have to figure out my ride home situation still, whether it is Evan or Ryan...
My roommate passed out in my bed on Saturday, at like 3 in the morning when I was ready to sleep. I ended up getting a cold that night and feeling like crap as well. Her being in my bed made thigns worse. I had to sleep on my friend's floor next door because I was too nice to wake her up and move her out of my bed. Why didn't she sleep in her own bed? Because her two friends were in her bed, great. If this happens again I am going to be really really unhappy. I try to be nice and pretty much make our room an open room, but enough is enough.
I need to find a job soon. The one I was looking at downtown was late nights and weekends. They are open till 3am Wednesday through Sunday, so I'm not even going to bother. That just screams no life to me.
Anyway, I can't wait to go home this weekend.
Peace.
<3
I am taking a bus to Binghamton on Friday after my last class and meeting my mom. This weekend is the annual Trevor Simpson Memorial Golf Tournament that I volunteer at every year. This weekend all of my friends that go away come home and everyone that is already home is so excited. The tournament is on Saturday and it is pretty much an all day thing. I have to figure out my ride home situation still, whether it is Evan or Ryan...
My roommate passed out in my bed on Saturday, at like 3 in the morning when I was ready to sleep. I ended up getting a cold that night and feeling like crap as well. Her being in my bed made thigns worse. I had to sleep on my friend's floor next door because I was too nice to wake her up and move her out of my bed. Why didn't she sleep in her own bed? Because her two friends were in her bed, great. If this happens again I am going to be really really unhappy. I try to be nice and pretty much make our room an open room, but enough is enough.
I need to find a job soon. The one I was looking at downtown was late nights and weekends. They are open till 3am Wednesday through Sunday, so I'm not even going to bother. That just screams no life to me.
Anyway, I can't wait to go home this weekend.
Peace.
<3
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Fire alarm
Whether my building is old or what, these fire drills are getting a tad overrated. Last night the alarm went off at 10pm, 3am, and 6am. Everytime we all had to evacuate the building and the fire trucks, police, and everything else. It was getting a bit ridiculous but by the third time I was ready to gauge my eyes out with a spoon.
I finally passed my online psych test yesterday, after three hours of straight studying. And now today, my best day ever, only one class, I have to go back and study some more for my Psych test tomorrow. Its going to be a long day after soccer tryouts tonight as well.
I guess thats it. Peace <3
I finally passed my online psych test yesterday, after three hours of straight studying. And now today, my best day ever, only one class, I have to go back and study some more for my Psych test tomorrow. Its going to be a long day after soccer tryouts tonight as well.
I guess thats it. Peace <3
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
done.
So Chris realized he didn't want a girlfriend in college. Great, I know.
I guess I'm okay with it, I'll get over it.
There is a soccer meeting today, see how that goes. Then tryouts start tomorrow I believe. I just want to start playing again, I miss it already.
My mom and sister came to visit me on Sunday, took me shopping and such. I miss having that luxury of being at home and just asking her for what I need.
So my rooommate came home the other night with basically a sprained ankle. I guess she fell down some steps, but her ankle is gross. She reminds me of my friend from home, crazy and a waste case.
Oh and I found out yesterday about the girl that already went home from my floor. Apparently she is spreading around the something bad, along the lines of rape, happened to her one of her first nights here. I still can't get over it.
Peace <3
I guess I'm okay with it, I'll get over it.
There is a soccer meeting today, see how that goes. Then tryouts start tomorrow I believe. I just want to start playing again, I miss it already.
My mom and sister came to visit me on Sunday, took me shopping and such. I miss having that luxury of being at home and just asking her for what I need.
So my rooommate came home the other night with basically a sprained ankle. I guess she fell down some steps, but her ankle is gross. She reminds me of my friend from home, crazy and a waste case.
Oh and I found out yesterday about the girl that already went home from my floor. Apparently she is spreading around the something bad, along the lines of rape, happened to her one of her first nights here. I still can't get over it.
Peace <3
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